Currently Listening Jason Aldean By Jason Aldean Why see related

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I don't know why everytime I read sappy poems I break down. Everytime the poem says you said you loved me, then you hurt me. I just sit there staring at the computer not saying a word. With the one lonely tear falling down my face. Why do I have to miss him like I do? Why can't my heart just move on like my mind is moving on. I don't look over my shoulder anymore, mourning on the relationships that have died; I just stear ahead without any weapons. And the only thing that i have from the past is the torn heart that I have recieved. When I was with him my heart didn't feel torn, but I knew it was. He made me feel like I was on top of the world. And I look for another that makes me feel like that, and I try to stear clear of them sappy poems; or I think about that feeling and I get all sappy and depressed again.

I just want to be happy, that is my only huge goal in life. And it can only work if I don't think about anyone from my past.

So I will get it all outta my system before I mess up another relationship.
The first person that I fell in love with was Daniel Hart. I loved him with everything, his cousin Jason went to school with me. He told daniel that he heard me talk about some guy that I was seeing on the side. And daniel believed him because he was his cousin. Well, later...like 2 years later he found out that his cousin only told him that because he wanted me. Daniel and I got back together, and broke up because he was having problems at home and he didnt want his mom hating him because he was with me. After we broke up the first time on Sept 20 2003. On Sept 22 his other cousin Daniel Deymond made me feel worse when he took my virginity. Then I started hanging out with my little brothers girlfriends mom, and her step brother whom was a couple years older than me.Brian Jay Maguire. We got into trouble and he went to jail. When he got out he promised me that he would quit all the shit that he was doing at the time, but it turned out that he didn't and he wouldn't. He would call me to hang out with him on the weekends, then he wouldn't talk to me for like a month after that. I was engaged to him 2 times. Then on September 22 of 05 I moved in with the 2nd person that i fell in love with. Benjamin James Groce. He was good from the start but started drinking and cheated on me, then acted like nothing happened. And I stayed and put up with him not speaking to me for the whole week, then i couldn't take it anymore and i left him. Heartbroken again. So I stayed at my moms and I met a guy that was friends of the family. He liked me, so it was like he followed me all the time. But then he bought me a truck for christmas. and he took me to tennesee.  He was supposed to be getting a divorce. Well he promised. And I didn't sleep with him at all. We got home from Tennesee and a couple of days later his wife called and we started talking and she came over to talk. well we found out a whole lot. That he was manipulating me into not talking to his wife, and sticking with him. Well it didnt work. I have been manipulated once and it won't happen again.
There are the kinds of relationships that I have had since I was 13. And in four months I will be 18!

Don't feel sorry or anything; I was just trying to get this out so I can 100% move on with my life.
 
The other day I seen a falling star. I definately made a wish. And I hope that it comes true.

well talk to you all later